celeste_36

Of everyone getting it all wrong...
And pretending to know what they don't...
I love my friends and I ALWAYS WILL...
But sometimes it is all to much!

I look and listen about things like Realms Aide II....perfect example... and it all makes me realize how much I miss the realms, the people and even freakin' New England! I miss it all... and you all so much.

Be back in a year hopefully...

Ok, so Kev and I were supposed to go to Florida for my sister's graduation...
But we both recently got new jobs and can't get the time off of work, so we can't go. My mom spent like $300 dollars on us for Universal and stuff... I told her I would pay her back...and pay for my brother's ticket to get changed...but she still hang up on me and won't talk to me... Is she being immature? or am I being dunb? Someone PLEASE tell me!!! Because I am going INSANE!!!! I am soooo sick of her acting like this....she does it allllll the fucking time!!!!! >:( AHHHHHH!!!!

Things have been good. I am happy, yay! lol Got some funny pics for all my friends! hehehe

Ok, today was completely horrible...threw up all day and still had to work. We need the money....gay lol. Other than that the event was fun. Kevin had a great time, he got to hear himself talk for basically the WHOLE DAY!! *shocked* lol Meh...going to try that sleep thing again...

Ok, so I live with Kevin now...
I think I miss the fact that I had a place to escape to...but what was I going to do? I love Beth and Neil so much, they are greast people and I want their lives to be perfect, but I was never there... I always feel like the guiltiest person in the world...

Meh, OMGosh... I got an hour massage on the 4th! It was glorious...not just great....glorious! Ummmm, other than that, I have been at home most of the time...haven't been working much...ahhh my life in a nutshell...how utterly boring...

OOOOOO and I didn't find out about this DLM night until today! WTF! I am pissed...now I have to check my email EVERYDAY! lol

COME slowly, Eden!
Lips unused to thee,
Bashful, sip thy jasmines,
As the fainting bee,

Reaching late his flower,
Round her chamber hums,
Counts his nectars—enters,
And is lot in balms!
~Emily Dickinson

...sex...love is always about sex it seems...at least from the artistic/romantic point of view...well tell me, whose view is correct?

THE HEART asks pleasure first,
And then, excuse from pain;
And then, those little anodynes
That deaden suffering;

And then, to go to sleep;
And then, if it should be
The will of its Inquisitor,
The liberty to die.
~Emily Dickinson

But then again sadness always goes along with everything...we always seem to hurt ourselves somehow...it's like we do it on purpose...blah...